Ouch...

Went to Chili's last night with Tammy and family, Tracey and Elaine, drank WAY too much and I feel like ass today. I am getting way too old for this shit. It is interesting to me that it gets harder to drink like that as you get older, you would think that will all of the practice that I have had that I would have gone pro by now and wouldn't feel the affects any more. Such is life I guess. Today will definitely be a long day, especially because I have City Council tonight, ick....

Tuesday, July 20

Well, I got my new tat yesterday! Digging it! My Mom looked at it and tries to be happy for me because she knows I like tattoo's but my Dad is like, hmpph, he doesn't think I should have any. I guess number six might be a bit much, but............. I really like how the artist did it because she did some shading on the Harley part and outlined the fairy in color instead of in black. It was pretty cool because the artist said that she thinks it was one of her best tattoo's and she took a bunch of pictures of it for her book. That is a good sign but could be bad also because I don't want anybody else to have the same tat! Anyway, Elaine found it for me and I am super happy because I really think it is me and it means something to me, both with the Harley portion and the attitude of the fairy!!!

Also, got some REALLY great new today, my Dad had his scan this morning and the cancer is exactly the same, that is awesome, it means no growth!

Monday, ugh

So this weekend I got my implants put in, well the post part anyway. The bad part is that I can't wear my temp teeth because of the swelling, it kind of sucks! It is my Dad's birthday today, my brother and I certainly got lucky that he is our Dad. I have learned so much from him. He is probably the most ethical, honest, hardworking person I know, I have so much respect for him. Elaine and I are going to get tattoo's on Friday. I am going to go with this one, although I am going to modify it a bit by putting an H on one side of the fairy and a D on the other side instead of the HD background.

Dental implants, cancer and dogs

So I just got off the phone with Dr. Stoddard's office. I am scheduled to go in tomorrow morning to get dental implants for four teeth that were lost in the motorcycle accident. Dr. Stoddard's office told me that they contacted my insurance and insuance will not cover ANY of the cost of the implants. Really, MFP???? So that means that I get to shell out $3925.00 tomorrow morning, awesome. It is pretty ridiculous because its not like I lost the teeth due to neglect or anything like that, it was part of an accident. I mean, I will get the money back in the long run with my settlement but still. Ok, enough bitching about that.....

The next thing that has really been on my mind a lot lately is cancer. I hate that disease, it is amazing how many people I personally know that are having to deal with it or have had to deal with it in some form or another. I really think that we all have it, it is just a matter of whether it will present itself or not. I hate the pain that goes with it and the rigorous treatments that go with it. I wish there was a quick fix. Right now I know four people that have breast cancer, of those, one case is terminal, meaning stage 4. It is really scary, I pray for these people every night but I wish there was something I could do to help. My dad also has cancer, his is kidney cancer and it terrifies me because he currently has a spot on his spine and one on his pancreas. I so admire him and his attitude though. I would have to say my Dad is probably the strongest person I know.

One of my co-workers told me about something she had watched on the news last night. Apparently someone had taken a lab puppy and tied it to a car and dragged it to the point where it's pads on it's feet were gone. What the fuck is wrong with people? As she was telling me the story I got goose bumps and almost wanted to cry. Really, how could someone do this to an innocent animal, bottom line, if they didn't want it, give it away or let if go so at least it would have the chance to be found. I would love to go vigilante on the people that did that. I think that their punishment should be the same as they did to the dog. On another note, one of my friends had to take her dog to the vet this morning for a hematoma on his ear, he is an old dog and she is worried that she isn't going to be bringing him home. I hope that isn't the case, pets are just like family in my opinion and losing one is very difficult.

At least it's Friday!

July 14, 2010

So this is the very first time I have ever tried a blog so it will be interesting to see how this goes. I'm really not sure what my purpose is or where I want to go with this but what the hell, I'm going to give it a shot! So, I am sitting in my office and am having a hard time concentrating, I booked a flight back to MN last night for the week of August 12-18th, I haven't been back in a few years and I am excited, yet frustrated because I think it is going to be hard to divide my time between family and friends. I don't want to piss anyone off, I never like to piss people off. I don't think this means I am a pushover, because I'm not but.... prime example, I told my Dad that I wanted to spend time with friends too and I think he got offended. Really? I am going to see both my Mom and Dad over Christmas in Texas and I'm not going to get to see anyone else so don't hijack my fuckin' vacation! I mean really, I love my parents to death but c'mon....

I would like to see if my Dad would want to go riding with me for a day, I would like to rent a motorcycle, although I think I might be scared, I haven't ridden since I was in a really bad accident last August (August 5, 2009) to be exact. In the accident my face got totally jacked and my bike got totalled. It was a bad deal, and to make it worse I have heard about several people that I know, or have friends that know them, that have been in very serious motorcycle accidents or they have actually been fatal. Riding is scary but it is also a way of life. I miss it so very much but I am also scared........

Speaking of the motorcycle accident..... it is a really good thing that I have never been vain because my face is pretty jacked up, I have already had two surgeries and go back for another in October and am actually going to get dental implants on Sat. morning. The whole thing has been a pretty bad deal. Probably the worst part about it is that I have never really been a confident person (I mean I am confident in my personality but my looks, not so much.. I mean I don't think I'm ugly by any means but...) and the accident has made it even worse. It also sucks because I'm single and it looks like I will stay that way for a while unless I can overcome my insecurities because who wants someone that is insecure. I guess it is what it is but.... In the mean time I have really been trying to focus on the whole diet (not diet so much but healthy eating) and exercise to try to help my confidence level improve. Not too sure it is helping, but worth a try right.....

OK, I figure this is long enough for my first attempt. I think I am going to try to use this as a journal of sorts, not really for anyone else, but more for me. If anyone reads it, that is cool but I'm not going to put it out there for that purpose (well that is what I am saying now). I guess I will see if I can stay on it or if it will fall to the wayside. Day 1 down!