So this is the very first time I have ever tried a blog so it will be interesting to see how this goes. I'm really not sure what my purpose is or where I want to go with this but what the hell, I'm going to give it a shot! So, I am sitting in my office and am having a hard time concentrating, I booked a flight back to MN last night for the week of August 12-18th, I haven't been back in a few years and I am excited, yet frustrated because I think it is going to be hard to divide my time between family and friends. I don't want to piss anyone off, I never like to piss people off. I don't think this means I am a pushover, because I'm not but.... prime example, I told my Dad that I wanted to spend time with friends too and I think he got offended. Really? I am going to see both my Mom and Dad over Christmas in Texas and I'm not going to get to see anyone else so don't hijack my fuckin' vacation! I mean really, I love my parents to death but c'mon....
I would like to see if my Dad would want to go riding with me for a day, I would like to rent a motorcycle, although I think I might be scared, I haven't ridden since I was in a really bad accident last August (August 5, 2009) to be exact. In the accident my face got totally jacked and my bike got totalled. It was a bad deal, and to make it worse I have heard about several people that I know, or have friends that know them, that have been in very serious motorcycle accidents or they have actually been fatal. Riding is scary but it is also a way of life. I miss it so very much but I am also scared........
Speaking of the motorcycle accident..... it is a really good thing that I have never been vain because my face is pretty jacked up, I have already had two surgeries and go back for another in October and am actually going to get dental implants on Sat. morning. The whole thing has been a pretty bad deal. Probably the worst part about it is that I have never really been a confident person (I mean I am confident in my personality but my looks, not so much.. I mean I don't think I'm ugly by any means but...) and the accident has made it even worse. It also sucks because I'm single and it looks like I will stay that way for a while unless I can overcome my insecurities because who wants someone that is insecure. I guess it is what it is but.... In the mean time I have really been trying to focus on the whole diet (not diet so much but healthy eating) and exercise to try to help my confidence level improve. Not too sure it is helping, but worth a try right.....
OK, I figure this is long enough for my first attempt. I think I am going to try to use this as a journal of sorts, not really for anyone else, but more for me. If anyone reads it, that is cool but I'm not going to put it out there for that purpose (well that is what I am saying now). I guess I will see if I can stay on it or if it will fall to the wayside. Day 1 down!
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